Journal 12 - Week of April 16th

This week we had a change of scenery with class because it was held in the Union Theater located in the, well you guessed it, the union! I like the theater there, I have seen many films there and find it homely I guess because it is our schools theater. This week we watched the film "Hamilton" by Bresson Porterfield. It is claimed to be shot like Nathaniel Dorsky's film "Variations". I do see how people compare this film with Dorsky's. They are both shot in 16mm and color, the only difference being that Porterfield's has a script. The color that is brought out in both films with the 16mm camera; there is something about it that attracts me. It would be like using the shots that Dorsky filmed and adding people to the locations with a script and you would get Porterfield's "Hamilton". Even having nice shots, I feel this film is very slow paced. In Dorsky's it is the shot length that is slow and in Porterfield's it is the length between people talking and the scenes. Even though this film was slow paced, I did feel a connection with this film because I to just recently had a baby with a girl who is not my girlfriend. She is a friend, but I feel she wants more than that with me and the only thing I can offer is my love for our daughter and to be there as the father. The girl in this film with the child that looks 4 months old or so, I feel for her. She seems lonely and sad, and wants the guy to connect with her. I feel I am walking around just like her, knowing I have this beautiful daughter, but also that my life has changed extremely. I feel my life has slowed down and is sometime slow paced. In the end of "Hamiliton" the boy and girl do not end up together and I feel that is the right thing for them. Some people are just meant not to be together.